Sunday, August 15, 2010
Sitting here under overcast sky in Northern California, listening to music on the satellite radio, hearing water cascading from a distant waterfall, sipping on a warm Earl Grey tea sweetened by Patzcuaro Honey, I ponder the meaning of life.
Well not actually the meaning of life , but the life that is to happen.....
My thoughts bring me back to my childhood, to my middle years , the experiences , the people I met and interacted with, the people that became friends, enemies and memories.
Looking back on how fast 60+ years have gone, saddens me knowing that so little time is left in relationship to the journey that has already been taken.
Now it is time to look forward to the remaining journey, knowing of how fast the next decade will arrive.
Will I be sitting at a keyboard in 10 years typing how fast the last 10 years has whizzed by?
How will life be in 2020?
Wow, that's a scary number.
I remember sitting at my wood desk in grammar school, one of the nuns , telling us that the end of the world was going to arrive soon. Well for her it probably did, she was old already when she was slapping wrists of small children and indoctrinating hell and fire during Catechism class.
And me, not even a Catholic.....
That was 1958 or so, when they were saying that..... it's still hasn't arrived, at least not for me. For many it has, I get a annual newletter from the high school I attended. I am shocked at how many of my fellow classmates have ceased breathing.....
I am lucky to say the least.
I am saddened that I have so little time, in perspective, already 2/3 of my life has slipped by and if I am lucky I'll have another 10 or 20 years to enjoy ......
Kind of depressing (Remember it is a gloomy gray Sunday morning) on one hand, but on the other kind of exciting that there is so many things yet to do and see.
Depressing that I didn't take more time before and do things, but in the big picture, I probably have done more than a majority of people ever do.... for that I am grateful and satisfied.
A friend of mine is planning his retirement next year in July. His wife already has been sitting at home , waiting for him to finish a few of his commitments, they have so many plans and things to do.
They keep asking about places in Mexico, they have already visited Patzcuaro ( if you remember, they are the ones that caused us to wait at the bus station for endless hours for them a few years ago) . They plan on renting in Mexico for awhile, travel around the country, take Spanish immersion classes, do all the things that one plans on doing.
I excited for them, and their excitement is contagious.
Here it is already almost September...3 months more and we kiss off another year...
I need to figure out a way to slow that clock up just a little in order to fit in some of the plans that I have created.
Gotta go, my Sunday is wasting away.......
One way is to spend less time on a keyboard.....you think?